So what do I mean by such a garish title?

Well I literally mean that all of the life history that you call you life that you have "stored' as memories in your mind body may be an impediment to your personal growth.

I must qualify here also what I mean by "personal growth" as this means different things to different individuals.

I mean it in the highest sense of the word. That is your growth, or more aptly, your evolvement into who you really are, a Divine Being!

Now what is that you may ask?

Well unfortunately I can only convey that as an experience and would be hard pressed to describe something that at this point you "think" is foreign to you. That would be like trying to explain how a strawberry tastes to you if you had never actually tasted one before.

To help you however I refer you to my many articles here in this ezine on Spirituality and I think you will find there what you are looking for, a small "taste" of your Divine Self. More of this can be had by contacting me directly at the web link below if you feel so inclined.

Having said that I wish to return to the issue of the problem of one's life history.

As I'm sure you will agree, not all of your life has been rosy, correct?

That means that you are carrying within you memories of negative, and in my view toxic memories, that have a definite effect on you.

What is this effect?

Well choose one and recall it in detail and as you do notice how it makes you feel.

You will notice some or all of the following; heaviness, sadness, pain, hurt, grief, dread, anxiety, anger, vulnerability, helplessness, hopelessness, guilt, regret, fear, confusion, meaninglessness, emptiness and so on.

What is all of this doing to you? Well when you are conscious of it you'll notice that it is draining your life energy.

That's the same as saying that it is killing you, isn't it?

When you're not conscious of its still killing you, although now more quickly.

Surprized you with that last statement, didn't I? You probably thought that by being less conscious you'd be feeling less of the pain and therefore that would be better for you.

Well if you look at it closely you'll recognize that in order to keep it "unconscious" i.e. not feel the pain, you need to expend energy. That's your vital life energy!

In other words more of your life energy is needed to keep it unconscious than to keep it conscious!

In either case the effect is that is it killing you.

Is this necessary? How far will all of those personal growth (using your definition here) strategies get you if all of this "history" of yours is draining your vital life energy right in front of your eyes and youre just pretending it isnt even there?

What's worse you probably never even "thought" this was a problem did you? That's because you've been "conditioned" to accept that this life history:

1. Identifies who you are as a human being.

2. Is necessary for you to learn from.

3. It is part of what it means to be a human being.

4. It is a normal aspect of the reality we live in.

5. Defines and is defined by the passage of time which we all accept as a universal phenomenon.

Well if you accept all of those the you'll have to live with the consequence of what that life history is doing to you then i.e. killing you.

Is that what you want?

You didn't know that you even had a choice up until now did you?

Well you most definitely do!

Please read may many articles here in this ezine (especially "We Are Not Our Personalities") and feel free to contact me if you would like to free yourself of this unnecessary and unnatural destiny.